Now You Say You're Sorry!

well, it's already noon here and no sign of any workers. can you believe it? i just got a call from the repairman. it seems that he had a late start and is only, now, leaving haifa. he should be here in another hour and a half. he said "sorry" but that was his way of being polite. he is after all, an anglo. but i am the one who is sorry. i'm sorry that i didn't get to unemployment this morning, and sorry that i didn't get to the bank, and sorry that i didn't wash the floor. and what ever happened to screen door man? he was already to come over on friday but gal was under the weather, so i had my son postpone. my right eye is very irritated and is really burning right now. the eye drops don't seem to be helping. i don't know if it's the side effects from the bells palsy or the strain from the late hours on the computer or the dryness in the air from this insane heat wave we've had. but i am suffering and my entire face is beginning to hurt. last nite, zvi figured out a way to attach the mobile to the portable crib. originally, when he tried to attach the plastic wheel , a small piece broke off rendering the bolt useless. he was ready to heave the whole thing out the window! it was made very cheaply, but it cost $50. anyway, the mobile was hanging over sahar but he was too busy staring at the shapes on his bumper pad to look up and take notice of the moving , smiling, stuffed sefer torahs; circling over his head. the tune is even jewish. "adon olam" is playing while the objects turn. i guess it will take him a little more time to focus. i kissed him goodnight last night and wondered what ever happened to that wonderful brand new baby smell. he smelled like an old man! maybe later, we'll bathe and shampoo him. i still remember the first time that zvi came home all sweaty and smelling like a little goat. i thought at the time that only little little boys could smell that bad. i guess babies do also. you might say that the "honeymoon" is over. i am just being honest. i would never say a word to the new parents about it! i just ate two of my wholewheat blueberry muffins because i was too tired to toast some diet whole wheat bread. i have been struggling with my weight for a couple of years now. i managed to lose 15 pounds before my son's wedding last year but i gained it all back. i will write a later blog about my crazy yo-yo dieting. it's already 1:00 p.m. and i am beginning to get a little nervous. I keep imagining, the repair guy calling to apologize, because he can't show up until night fall . and i imagine myself saying,"now you say you're sorry?" P.S 2:00 p.m. both the repairman and screen door man just arrived. i have this weird feeling that i might just get to say "now you say you're sorry".