Monday, November 20, 2017

Monday All Day

it is 12:00 p.m. in the holy city of safed.  I haven't posted in a long while.  I have been too tired.  I've had the grandkids with me a lot and I've been cooking supper, five times a week for 22 yeshiva students.  I haven't had the strength to do laundry, pay my bills or do any other errands.  I have been binge eating without stop.  my back hurts and I'm terribly out of shape.

my sleep has been erratic and I'm basically a wreck.  last week I had to sub two times for the other cook.  she is also breaking down physically.  I put in 61/2 hours on Wednesday and then another 7 hours on Thursday.  that's all standing on my feet.  I can't seem to cut veggies sitting down.  the conditions in  the kitchen are primitive.

the oven isn't working and we are down to three gas burners.  we use a large toaster oven to bake kugels and cakes and roast veggies and make casseroles.  it takes about 2 hours or more.  I spent an hour yesterday mincing chicken cutlets and turkey meat to make 2 shepherd's pies.  I didn't have the hand strength to fully mash a vat of cooked potatoes.  it was quite lumpy.  and the pies were too liquidy. I didn't have any more time left to bake them more.

my granddaughter was with me for about an hour and a half and I was pressured to pick up my grandson from school.  I called my son to bring my grandson to the yeshiva.  I needed more time but I was too tired to continue working.  I put the leftover salads from lunch into plastic containers and washed out the many very large plastic dirty bowls.  I scrambled to clean the stove tops and the floor.  did I mention that the sink gets clogged and I have to bale out the mirky water after every set of pots and bowls that I wash??

 I started to cut up tomatoes and cucumbers to make an Israeli salad but I gave up.  there was plenty of leftover cucumber salad, egg salad and macaroni salad.  I threw the remainder of the carrot salad into the macaroni salad.  I did manage to make a side dish of cooked zucchini with chickpeas in soy sauce.  hopefully, there was enough food for the guys.  the food processor is a 'challenge' to use.  the cover flies off and you have to insert a knife onto the starter button to make it run.  I am afraid to use it.  the other cook has the magic touch.  she makes all kinds of salads with it.  I stick to a knife and make chopped salads or cooked veggies.

I probably could have stayed another half an hour to finish the Israeli salad but I wanted to go home.  my son was giving me a lift to my house.  otherwise, I have a twenty minute walk back to the bus station and at least a half an hour wait for a bus. I also have a half an hour bus ride now since they changed the route. I obviously, opted to go home by car. I was so tired that I found myself telling my son where to let me off.  crazy??

I had the grandkids for the whole Shabbat.  I picked them up in town from school on Friday and rode the school bus home with them.  it is not for the fainthearted.  the older kids are animals.  they put their school bags on the seats so the little kids don't get to sit down.  they also scream and literally, hang from the rafters.  there is no adult on these busses.  last week I screamed at them to sit down and shut up until I lost my voice.  on friday, I turned my back to them once I made sure that most of the little first graders had seats. I ran to the supermarket early in the morning to get veggies and fruits.

I bought a ton of treats in town on Thursday. I didn't get home until after 8:00p.m.  I spent a real fortune. I felt bad for the kids being away from their parents.  they slept at the Sephardi grandparents' house on Thursday night.  their parents went to a hotel in Tiberius. I washed the floors before I went to get the kids on Friday morning.

on the ride back from school on Friday morning, we stopped for more kids at another school.  I  tried to get the kids to go to the back of the bus to clear the aisle for the other kids to get off the bus. I went to the back of the bus and started tossing school bags off of seats.  the bratty kids were pretty shocked and enraged at my behavior.  I finally got the new kids to get seated before I made my exit.

 I am currently dog sitting for another friend. this dog is old and ugly and has managed to rip out most of her hair. she scratches non stop and also poops and pees non stop throughout my house.  I am not digging this at all.  my dog also has a scratching problem.  I believe that he is allergic to fleas. 

I read that coconut oil remedies this.  I try to slather some on his body whenever I find a moment.  I haven't been entirely successful.  I really should do the other dog too but I can't stand to touch it.  my granddaughter had some kind of break out herself, on Saturday.  it first looked like a few mosquito bites.  when she woke up her face had huge red marks like hives.  it wasn't on her back or other parts of her body so I didn't think it was chicken pox or measles.  I applied coconut oil to relieve the itching.

she complained that her belly button was hurting. sure enough, she had a huge swelling there too.   I was a bit anxious because she recently had a hernia surgery.  after lunch I let the kids go visit friends.  they were at the local park binging on sweets and I thought I might get a bit of a rest. at 2:00 p.m. I became alarmed.  I found them playing in the dirt and my granddaughter looked like a demon.  she had huge patches of redness over her eye lids and under her eyes.  I assumed that it might be an allergic reaction to the coconut oil. I asked my neighbor, who is a fledgling nurse, if she thought it was an allergy.  she didn't really commit to an answer.

I managed to get the kids back to the hose and promptly showered them and put them into clean pajamas.  we played bingo for a while.  Shabbat is pretty short now.  it ends at 5:30 p.m.  I couldn't wait to call their parents and let them know that their daughter needed medical attention.  they didn't seem too concerned.  an aunt came over and took pix and sent them to the parents who were out of town.  I asked my son to come home earlier. they like to go to the movies and mauls.  we were driven to my son's apartment so the kids could go to sleep in their own beds.

I was tired because I had missed my Shabbat nap.  I forced myself not to fall asleep. there is nothing more wrong than to be found sprawled out and snoring on the couch when I'm babysitting.  the parents returned home at 1:00 a.m.  I never did fall asleep.  I could barely stand yesterday.  I would have asked the other cook to sub for me but she was just barely back on her feet after having suffered a kidney stone attack.  I came home with my son yesterday at 5:00 p.m.  I usually get home at 7:00 p.m.  I think I passed out after my cooking show at 7:00 p.m.  I do not have to watch the kids today. I am planning on going to the yeshiva around 3:00 p.m.

I am desperately trying to curb my food binging.  I do not have a real plan.  I am trying to eat one food item at a time.  I had one egg for breakfast.  I had one banana for a snack.  I had one red pepper with one large spoon of peanut butter for lunch.  I did have a nice bowl of green salad.  last night I had one chicken cutlet for supper. and I had one grapefruit for a snack.  I don't think that I can commit to a fruit fast at this moment in time.  and I don't think hat I can deal with the south beach diet anymore.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017


it is 6:00 p.m. in the holy city of safed.  it is cold and rainy.  they had a hail storm downtown today.  I finally took down the sukkah this morning.  it did look threatening so I went into action.  my son had taken off the bamboo roof covering a few days ago.  the material , which I've had for over 20 years, was pretty dirty.  I threw it into the washing machine on a gentle cycle.  it survived.  it doesn't look brand new but it doesn't smell bad now.  it only took me about an hour to take down all the decorations, dismember the bars and wash the material. 

I am pretty tired these days.  I had the grandkids almost every day during the holiday.  I also cooked almost every day which is a lot for me.  I went through all my cooking job money pretty fast.  I spent a fortune on food and treats for Shabbat and holiday meals.  if I need to make shabbat for the kids it will be a simple meal.  I have some wings and chop meat in the freezer.

it is it is 8:00 a.m. in the holy city of safed.  I just got back from walking, tiny, the medium sized terrier.  he likes being on a leash now.  the major problem is that there are many loose dogs around in this area and they all want to war with tiny.  it doesn't help that he growls at every 4 legged creature, too.  I took him out last night at midnight and at the corner circle, a young and collarless small german shepherd was hanging around.  I had to grab tiny and hold him and I screamed for the shepherd to scram.  it is very stressful.

I need to go to the yeshiva later to defrost some chop meat.  they end their holiday break tomorrow.  I need to make supper for 18 students tomorrow.  I didn't sleep very well last night nor the night before.  I am pretty wrecked.  I watched a pretty graphic sexy and violent movie in the middle of the night.  I slept through most of it.  the son did get vengeance on the ones who turned his mother into a prostitute.  I was truly too tired to get up and turn off the television.  I don't feel well this morning.  I also ate an enormous amount of candy last night.  I have been binging for the past two weeks.

a vey dear old friend has her first anniversary of her passing this Friday.  I have been thinking a lot about her for weeks.  I even asked someone when her yirtseit was because I was feeling her so strongly.  I don't want to chance running into my sister at the cemetery.  I am not ready to see her.  she has emailed me twice and I deleted both texts.  she is in denial about what transpired between us.  I know Dr. Phil would disagree with me.  but then again, he never met my sister.

I truly believe in accountability.  I can no longer be around people who cannot fess up to their atrocious behavior.  you can't fix something unless you admit that it is broken.  this goes far beyond being political incorrect.  it took me a long time before I could own up to my mistakes.  I would like to believe that I can admit when I screw up.  I am pretty busy picking up the grandkids after school.  we ride home on the school bus a few times a week.  it is free and the kids love being with their peers.  who knows what I will do when it begins raining every day.

I am obsessed with following the Harvey Weinstein scandal online.  it reminds me of the Clinton years.  it comes into every home if you want it or not.  it hurts that it is a jewish man, to boot.  we are supposed to be the light to the other nations.  we are not supposed to be bullies.

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Tomorrow Night Is Sukkot

it is 9:30 p.m. in the holy city of safed.  my little sukkah is ready to go.  I just hooked up the light.  it is only 2 meters by 2 meters.  I only used half of the parts so that if my son wanted his own sukkah it was already stored in the shed.  I broke two ceramic decorative hangings of lemons and apples.  oh well....  I always buy a new decoration before every sukkot but I was not so inspired this month.  the kids made some paper chains and my grandson made a lantern.  I am afraid to hang it over the light bulb.  I do not want the sukkah to burn down.

I will hang it as a decoration.  I always hang my vast collection of plastic fruits and vines.  this time I  mainly used clusters of grapes, apples, pomegranates and citrons.  I didn't hang up the odd pear, peach or passion fruit.  I also didn't hang up the silver glitter apples this time.  when the kids come in the morning, they can help me put them up if they want them.  I tried to avoid the tinsel.  I schlepped up a large picnic table from the downstairs.  I couldn't believe that it actually fit.

I decided to stay up here in the neighborhood tomorrow night.  the kids are coming on Thursday afternoon to make a barbecue.  I splurged big time and bought a bunch of steaks.  I will make some tomato relish and humus tomorrow.  I will also make a green salad on Thursday.  I can't decide if I need to make potatoes or rice to go with the meat.  they are also coming for Shabbat meals.  I haven't exactly decided what to cook.  I might just go with schnitzels and mashed potatoes and of course, spicy morracocan style tilapia for supper.  I'm thinking about making a cholent for lunch.  I bought a nice piece of meat.

I really blew my paycheck on this holiday.  it felt good to have a little money for a change.  after this we have simchat torah and then no more holidays until Chanukah.  I'm not sure when I will do my surgery.  I'm kind of scared to wait until I have seizures.  I am also scared of not being able to get back to work.  as hard as it is to cook every day for 12 hungry young men, it is harder to think about being a shut in.  I have been hitting the junk food again. I simply lost myself. 

I have been riding the school bus 3 times a week with my grandkids.  it is free and I save on cab fares.  the grandkids love riding the bus with their peers.  my grandson doesn't exactly like my screaming at his little boy friends.  it is a zoo.  the kids wanted to sleep over tonight because they don't have school tomorrow.  I needed a break.  I had them here til 11:00 p.m. last night.  I thought I could wash the floors tonight but I absolutely didn't have the energy.  I spent a couple of hours this evening decorating the sukkah.  I will wash the floors tomorrow and change the sheets.

I want to do a bit of baking tomorrow.  I want to make chocolate and date brownies.  I might just use the jar of coconut oil that has been sitting in my fridge for months.  I hope i'll have some energy tomorrow.  it will be good for me to go to my friends on the next street.  I can't even think about walking home for 40 minutes from the in-law's.  I hate to seem stand offish but I just don't have a lot of energy of late.  I don't think that I've been drinking enough and it has turned hot, once again.

my friend, on the next street, is a frequent visitor to Vegas.  in fact she has tickets to go in November.  I freaked out when I read the internet.  of course, my living in Israel has made me believe that every mass murder is a terror attack.  from what I've seen on the American news, they are calling out the availability of a crazed man to get automatic weapons.  the platform is against guns and not isis and the jihad movement.  oh well....

Monday, September 25, 2017

The New Year Begins

it is 7:30 a.m. in the holy city of safed.  I just got back from walking my dog, tiny.  tiny is not small.  he has become a bull.  my friend picked up her dogs a couple of days before the holiday.  it is very quiet at Zelda's place these days.  tiny doesn't require a lot of attention.  he spends a lot of time in the closet of the costumes.  I managed to buy two new outfits for the holiday.  I thought they were white but they were actually off white. one is a lacey see through , sleeveless dress and the other is a very long layered meshy top.

the house is pretty clean, too.  no one is pishing on the floors these days.  I spent a lot of time cleaning the house for rosh hashana.  I bleached for days.  I changed all of the bedding in every room. my friend with a dog chose not to come for the holiday.  she thought we were having a heat wave and she chose to be alone.  it was warm here but there were breezes and at night it was actually, cold.

the kids also opted for walking home after the meals.  the grandkids slept over on Friday night but for most of the holiday I was alone.  it was very quiet and I didn't sleep that well.  the prayer service was 5 hours long the first day.  I was very uncomfortable and standing became painful.  the following morning it was 'only' 4 1/2 hours long.  it was not enjoyable.  I had to sit down.  my sciatic was acting up. it was an endurance test.

there was way too much food, too.  I didn't touch any honey cake and pretty much stuck to my regimen.  I did eat too much dried fruit and it poofed out my stomach. I went a bit crazy the last couple of days.  I ate 3 large dairy chocolate bars and I finished a tin of honey bars.  and then last night I had a bag of potato chips.  I am very tired and very nervous.  I haven't heard from the hospital about my brain surgery yet and just the thought of it is making me crazy. 

I fasted on sunday and went to the yeshiva in the afternoon to make them a supper to break their fast.  I got back at 6:00 p.m. and the fast ended at 7:00 p.m. I was pretty tired yesterday.  I went to the yeshiva at 4:00 p.m.  my uniform that I used to cook in is gone. I couldn't find an apron, either.  I do not like cooking in just clothes.  I fried up about 50 turkey patties yesterday and I came home reeking of oil.  my clothes are filthy.  I am not a happy camper.

  I was supposed to make hamburger stroganoff, whatever that is, and a carrot and squash loaf.  I just didn't feel like it.  I had no patience to look up the stroganoff recipe, either.  I couldn't get the food processor to work and I didn't feel like hand grating the vegetables.  I ended up cooking up a pot of boiled potatoes with a lot of oil and turmeric and a pot of plain rice.  I also made a small pot of zucchini with tomato sauce.  and I served turkey patties for the main, as they say on my Australian cooking shows.  the frying of 50 patties was very tiresome, too boot.

I was too tired to visit my friend after work.  I came home and pretty much collapsed on the t.v. couch.  I was too tired to eat a proper meal, too.  I had nashed on leftovers at the yeshiva.  I  had a peanut butter sandwich and a glass of milk.  I have to get back onto my food regimen, pronto, before I really blow it.  I don't really have much food in the house.  I get my check on Wednesday so I will be able to buy some food and get ready for yom kippur, which falls out on Shabbat.  I usually make a pre fast soup for the kids.  I bought frozen kreplach months ago.

I wanted to buy a kids' sukkah for the grandkids but I don't know if i'll be able to financially swing it.  I  think I get paid after the holidays.  I still have to get the adult sukkah put up.  I don't think i'll be entertaining much this season.  I don't feel like cooking again.  I over did it for rosh hashana..  I've been fighting a sore throat since before the holidays.  I gargled with peroxide which quieted it down a bit but I am beginning to cough again.

I am still upset about the fallout with my sister.  I spent the entire holiday thinking about the situation.  after all, the theme of the holidays is forgiveness.  I am sick about it.  I have very little peace of mind.  I am thinking about seeing a therapist.  I am too busy to relax.  I can't follow a story line on television and I can't seem to finish my book.  my back is acting up and it hurts to walk.  who knows? perhaps the brain surgery will get my mind off my family situation.

Thursday, September 14, 2017

The NewYear

it is 1:00 p.m. in the holy city of safed.  my friend's dog woke me up about 5:30 a.m.  I could not  rouse myself out of bed.  finally at 6:30 a.m. I took the 3 pooches out.  the pain in my ear and jaw came back.  I am beginning to think that it may be time to get the tumor out of my head.  I  started to clean the house for Shabbat and, of course, for the holidays.  I put away the food I made yesterday for Rosh Hashanah.   I cooked a small piece of beef in sweet wine and I made some spicy chicken and turkey meatballs.  I decided to make a small batch of spicy beef meatballs; so as I cleaned, it cooked.

I know a lot of people who don't like to eat 'leftovers' straight out of the freezer.  I don't tell anyone anymore when I cook.  I am not working next week on Wednesday but I still wanted to get a head start on the food preparations.  I am too tired right now to make a few honey cakes.  I have a banana chocolate chip loaf in the oven.  the kids are too tired to make Shabbat for themselves so I am hosting them for Friday night.  I just made a pot of very spicy chicken soup for tomorrow night and the traditional Sephardi spicy red sauce fish.  I used tuna and tilapia this time.  I like my tuna.  I made potato salad, tomato relish, spicy hot carrots and beet salad.  I am planning on making humus tomorrow.

I went food shopping yesterday.  I bought the various traditional veggies and fruits that we use for the holiday.  and of course, I bought the two most important ingredients, honey and a fish head.  we use beets and beet leaves, carrots, pumpkin, leeks, apples, black eyed peas, pomegranates, dates and fish for the pre meal ceremony. each food is dipped in honey.  one year I made a fourth of a sheep's head.  the kids were turned off.  only my grandson and I tried it.  it was yummy.  the Sephardi grandma makes lungs.  it's really tasty.

I haven't decided if I am going out for a meal yet.  I am invited to join the clan but it will be super noisy.  I don't know if my friend is coming with her dog or not.  it is a pretty long holiday.  it goes right into Shabbat.  we are talking seven meals from Wednesday night til Saturday night.  that's four days together.  I am not looking forward to this at all.  some people cook on Friday morning after services.  I am hoping that I will have enough food so that I won't have to cook.  I don't mind making salads but I don't like being on my feet in the kitchen after standing at services all morning long.  I have to make a dinner meal for the yeshiva on sunday.  it is a fast day.

I kind of ran out of money.  I usually make a cheesecake but I think i'll skip it this time.  I don't know if I have enough veggies to make it through the holiday.  I have enough time to shop next week.  I already bought a ton of rolls.  they are in the freezer, of course.  I may make a kugel or two if the eggs last.  I didn't buy drinks.  I can always ask the kids to get some.  I have lots of grape juice but I don't have any wine.  my son is usually in charge of getting choice wine.  I cleaned the upstairs apartment so the kids can have privacy.  they may even bring their cat.  I want to clean the master bedroom soon before I go to work.  are we having fun, yet?

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

The Party's Over

it is 8:30 a.m. in the holy city of safed.  yesterday evening I hosted a birthday party for my grandson, downstairs.  last year the kids were in their new apartment and only had room for family members.  now that we are on better terms, the party came back to my home.  I pressured my son to come around in the morning to take down the pool.  last year it stood outside during the winter, uncovered, catching rain water.  it was pretty awful.  we really needed the space for the party.  I made him an offer he couldn't refuse.

it took about half an hour in all, to dismember the bars and clean the pool.  I was left to put it back into the original box.  I must have folded and refolded the pool three times but it was too heavy for me to lift.  I couldn't get that sucker into the box, no how.  I left it folded in a corner of the patio with the pool's ladder. I was concerned about having the ladder around kids.  I  actually found a family toddler attempting to climb it.  no one else noticed but me.  I also worried that there wouldn't be enough light outside when it got dark.

I spent hours downstairs washing down the patio and wet mopping the bathroom and hall floors.  the place is huge.  I cleared the laundry room, which is also very huge, of any objects left over from the party I threw before pesach.  I was so concerned that the place look clean and smell good.  I sprayed the bathroom for some time.  the entire house smelled good.  I schlepped down about a dozen or more chairs to the patio from the upstairs.  I couldn't manage the two tables, by myself.  I secluded the two dogs that I'm caring for into the master bedroom.  I washed all the floors in my house, too.  someone would for sure come upstairs to borrow something so I did all of the dishes left in the two sinks.

I couldn't stand anymore.  my back was finished.  I got ready to go to work at the yeshiva.  I waited half an hour for the bus.  I didn't feel like taking a cab.  I searched the house for light bulbs.  I was obsessed about lighting for the outdoors.  I ran to a house goods store on my way to work to buy small halogen bulbs for the downstairs fixtures.  I didn't know who would put them in for me.  they are pretty high up on the wall.  I obsessed all afternoon about these lights.  the man in the store didn't know or care about what I was looking for.  he was young and hungry and wanted to finish his sandwich.

I was too nervous to spend too much time cooking at the yeshiva.  I worried that the dogs might get out while I was gone.  instead of making a kugel, I made stewed potatoes.  I took out a 9x11 pan of leftover tuna loaf to serve the young men for dinner.  it was quite dense.  the other cook suggested that I break it up and make it into fish patties. sure!  I finished cooking some ratatouille, zelda style, cleaned up and left.  I waited a half an hour for the bus to come home.  I was very tempted to catch a cab but I resisted.  I even caught a small shuttle bus in front of the yeshiva to catch another bus in town.  it's about a 7minute walk but I was that tired.

I thought about stopping off at the supermarket to buy some bulbs but I went home directly, instead.  the downstairs was very party like.  the tables were all filled with prizes and candies and drinks and chocolate goodies.  there were balloons strung everywhere.  my daughter-in-law had two sisters and a very abled teenage brother helping her set up.  I'm a one woman show.  what ever I can't do doesn't get done.  I have no help.  I was delighted that the dogs were all intact except for the pincher.  I think she is dying.  she is no longer able to stand up on her hind legs and she stopped drinking and eating.  I'm thinking about taking her to be put down tomorrow.  who knows? perhaps they will shoot her up with steroids and she will revive.

I searched my drawer for bulbs one more time and lo and behold, I found a small halogen light bulb.  I asked the teenage brother if he could put it in for me.  I schlepped down the ladder and a few screwdrivers and voila!  we had tons of light.  I took a shower and made an effort to look nice.  I even put on eyeliner and lip gloss.  when I got downstairs, there were just a few kids.  it was mostly family.  I went upstairs to make some tea and the guests arrived en masse.  there could have been 25 or more 8 year olds.  they had a sound system and mike. the noise was unbearable for me.  in just moments the patio was littered with wrapping paper, burst balloons, drinks, candy wrappers and loose candies.  I thought to myself, why exactly, did I wash down the patio hours before?  I guess I didn't want to offend anyone with the smell of dog pish or the sight of loose dirty leaves..

everyone got cold outside so the activities resumed in the house.  within moments the house got trashed with candy wrappers, spilled drinks, wrapping paper, smashed salad and chocolate cake remains.  one of the activities was frosting store bought cupcakes with hand made whipped cream icing.  the Sephardi grandma was in charge of that activity. while the girls were decorating cupcakes in the kitchen, the boys were making bedlam in the laundry room.  then the pizzas arrived.  the place was super trashed with leftover ketchup wrappers and half eaten slices of pizza.  the Israeli's love ketchup on their pizza.  I stayed outside.  I was a bit overwhelmed.  I was picking up leftover pizza slices and eating them.  I was so tired.

after the cupcake decorating and pizza the kids once again came outside and I was so pleased that the patio was well lit.  the kids rode around on all sorts of wheeled toys.  then the parents came to pick up the kids.  the party bags were distributed and almost everyone left.  the Sephardi family finally left and I told my daughter-in-law that I would clean up.  I just wanted everyone to leave.  I was exhausted.  I needed to be alone.  I needed to take the dogs for a walk.  I threw out a ton of garbage and brought up drinks and leftover party bags..

I don't have an ounce of energy left in my body.  I woke up late and took the doggies out at 7:30 a.m.  I usually take them out at 6:00 a.m. I washed the front hall because someone pished and left a bit of doggie do.  I don't blame them.  I goofed up this morning.  all in all, I do believe that my grandson actually enjoyed his party for a change.  my daughter-in-law was in her element.  she loves being the mc and really gets into these kids' activities. her family supports her and they all pick up the slack for her.  my son stays out of sight until the end and then supplies beer for the few men present.  he then slips away.  this time he took home the loot.  my grandson scored big time.

Friday, September 1, 2017

Even More Tired

it is 3:30 p.m. in the holy city of safed.  I spent 3 hours washing the floors and changing the linens in my house this morning.  it is just too doggy here.  I was able to clean out all the dog hair, pish and doggie droppings all over the house.  I am dog sitting for my friend's two small pinchers and they are a hand full.  there are currently two female and two male dogs co existing here.  my female pincher is very old and on her way out, I believe.  she has become incontinent and can barely walk.  she pishes and leaves droppings wherever she stands.

I cannot see having her putdown just yet.  she doesn't seem to be in pain.  she makes it outside and to the end of the street.  I may have to leave her on the bedroom porch in her doggie bed.  she seems to enjoy the company of the other dogs.  perhaps she has gone senile.  the two males got into a loud scuffle this morning.  I was not pleased.  my male has been hiding in the costume closet all day.  I just fed them so I will be able to take them out for a walk before Shabbat.

the kids came back from their five day holiday trip on Wednesday.  I had them for about four hours yesterday before I went to the yeshiva to make dinner for the students.  I am cooking for 12 these days.  it takes about 2 hours to make the meal an additional hour or more to wash the pots and put away the leftovers.   it amounts to about 3 hours on my feet.  I am truly feeling it in my back.  yesterday I came home after 7:00 p.m.  I fed the dogs and raced out.  they had a celebratory meal at the Sephardi synagogue for a new sefer torah.  they had a ceremony earlier in the evening for the fallen soldiers at the local high school. 

I was starving and looked forward to a good meal.  we went to the house where the torah was brought the night before.  I wasn't hungry at all.  the hostess, who lost her young son in the army two years ago, served a vegetarian couscous.  I tasted the veggies and had a few raisins, and nuts.  last night I really went for it.  I ate a huge roll and finished a plate of humus with spicy chopped meat.  they brought out the schnitzel after 9:00 p.m.  my friend split.  even tough, I don't eat after 8:00 p.m. I didn't care last night.  they brought out little cubes of very spicy meat with chick peas.  this is a Sephardi delicacy: lungs.  I actually love it.  I pretty much finished off the whole bowl at my table.  at 10:00 p.m. they started bringing out platters of rice and potatoes and couscous.  I left. 

I walked the 3 dogs and then collapsed in bed.  I sleep with 3 dogs now.  I didn't feel so well last night.  I was actually naceous.   that's what you get for eating tons of lungs late at night.  I felt fine this morning.  one of the dogs woke me up at around 6;00 a.m. and not very gently.  I took the 3 out on leashes.  my pincher can't keep up with us on a walk.  we got back a half an hour later.  it was quite cool and breezy.  I decided to take a 'power' walk by myself.  I seem to have high blood pressure now.  I made it only about a couple of blocks away.  I couldn't get myself to climb the hill to the top of the neighborhood.

I walked around a bit for another half an hour and made it to the supermarket.  I bought a few pieces of fruit and eggs and some items that were on sale before the holidays.  I also bought a package of 5 grain tortillas.  they are extremely thin and delicious.  I didn't make a thing for Shabbat.  I kind of wangled an invite out of my kids and friends.  so I am set.  I put up hot water in case I want a tea and I made banana oatmeal silver dollar pancakes.  I love having a few before I go to synagogue.  I don't eat muffins or cake anymore. 

I need a rest and I need a shower and I need to walk the dogs.  I wonder if i'll get a rest today.  candle lighting is in about 2 hours.