What Can We Do?

it is 9:00 a.m. in the holy city of safed.   the dogs were actually knocked out from the heat and didn't request their nightly run.  i was honestly not up for going out, either.  i didn't sleep last night.  it is pretty typical for a Saturday night for me.  i napped throughout the day and it was enough.  i was online watching dog rescue videos until about midnight.  i can't watch the news anymore.  i read one headline or article about the virus and i'm done.  it does seem pretty hopeless.

the thought of going back to stores doesn't thrill me.  for instance, how would one protect themselves from the virus in a small dressing room?   how could i ever try on a dress or sweater over my head again?  i desperately need new clothes.  i guess online shopping is the safest way for those with credit cards.  i have never bought anything online except for a book.

actually, i just need skirts.  i have tons of tops.  i guess i could have a quick run through wearing a mask and gloves and buy a couple.  of course; that would entail my getting on a bus and going to town.  i would have to get there bright and early.  most stores do not open before 9:00 a.m. and i doubt that they would have senior hours to accommodate us endangered species.  so i guess for now; i will have to tough it out.

i took the dogs out at 7:00 a.m.  i turned the television off at 5:30 a.m.  i watched reruns of 'friends' all night.  it is soothing and non toxic and easy to follow.  it's a no brainer.  i keep the sound low so i don't bother the family downstairs; too much.  i can't really follow a movie or television drama unless i turn the volume up.  the Sephardi family didn't keep their volume down yesterday at all.  in fact, the adult kids sounded like they were killing each other.  it didn't seem to rattle the dogs and i also; didn't find it upsetting.  i think we were sort of brain fried from all the sun.

it is another warm day.  i am truly zonked.  i broke my nighty 14 hour fast at 9:00 a.m.  the leftovers from the Sephardi grandma were calling out to me.  i had a chicken cutlet, a kabob and a slice of meat.  i had a slice of my kugel, too.  i didn't bother to heat it up.  i had a tangerine and a date for dessert.  the dogs had a feast of meat and schnitzel.  i'll have oatmeal for supper tonight.  why not?

one of the dogs threw up all over the bed in the master bedroom.   i scrubbed the sheet with some cleanser until it looked unstained.  i was worried that the puppy might be sick.  that's all i need to deal with right now.  they both have ticks.  i don't think we suffer from Lyme disease here in Israel.  i sprayed them both this morning.  in the past; i would use essential oils to ward off ticks and fleas but they have proven to be ineffective.  everything is lush right now in our land.  we had a record amount of rain this winter and the wildlife is enjoying it right now; while we stay in our homes.

you see pictures of wild boar parading down boulevards in Haifa, elks running wild in parks and jackels in tel aviv.  you can see species of birds that we never see.  i guess the ticks are thriving, too.  i am pretty listless today.  i will take a shower soon.  part of me doesn't want to bother.  i was mostly showering to stay warm when i was chilled..  no need for that now.  i need to get out of my sweats.  it's pretty warm now.  i am tired physically and psychically.  i surrender!

i think we are allowed to pray in small groups outside, again.  we are also allowed to exercise outside.  that means youngsters will be in the parks.  we, the over 60 populace; will need to be more vigilant now.  i almost want to contract the virus to just get it over with.  the truth is that i am afraid of suffering.  i got through chemo and radiation and landed in the hospital for a two week stint afterwards.  i was given shots of potassium in my stomach as well as in my arms and i received blood transfusions.  at one point i was on 4 bags of infusion.  i didn't really suffer.  i was never in pain.  i am afraid of not being able to breathe.  I've even woke up from a rona nightmare and thought that i wasn't breathing well.

i have a runny nose from the constant change in weather.  i also have a bit of a cough.  normally, why would i even care.  i think it will be a solitary day.  i don't feel like having any human interaction today.  i'm all played out and it's only 10:00 a.m.  i think i'll nap after my shower.