Wednesday, May 16, 2018

Shavuot Is Coming

it is 8:30 a.m. in the holy city of safed.  I haven't blogged in a while because I have been too tired.  I have recently had to take care of the grandkids while the daughter-in-law worked part time.  we are once again, in the middle of a heat wave which doesn't help.  I was very busy with the play and costumes and I am happy to tell that they were a huge hit.  I will be posting some pix soon.  I want to find a good shot of the famous appliqued pink poodles and paws dress.  we had a cast party the other day and I did a mock tony ceremony and gave out statues that we bought in the toy store.

I went on line and studied every aspect of the tonys.  I learned way more than I wanted to.  my friend and I had also worked out some shtick to do.  as soon as I started to read my presentation I got a blinding headache and I thought that I might pass out.  I was sure that I was having an aneurism.  it still is sore today.  I have another MRI soon so if it is my tumor acting up I will know.

I wanted to clean the house today but I am too hot and too tired.  working at the yeshiva is very hard.  I stand on my feet from 4-5 hours each day.  yesterday the rabbi decided to make a set menu.  I tried to explain to him that it will only work if the kitchen is stocked.  it is hard to make an egg dish when there are no eggs.  I hate to be limited to a menu.  I need to be free.  I don't want to make shakshuka every Monday morning.  on the other hand, I made a mushroom soufflé yesterday and it wasn't really consumed.  the corn bread wasn't eaten up either.  I tasted them both.  they were yummy.  the soufflé was a bit bland but still they didn't want any part of it.

the main problem is that growing men need a lot of protein.  in the past I cooked for vegan and vegetarian guys but this crowd wants meat and chicken.  we give them meat only on Shabbat day in a mixture of potatoes and barley.  there isn't any fish or chicken there.  we have too many hot dogs and minced turkey.  it is hardly filling.  it makes my job a bit hard.

I am going in early today to buy some fruit for the guys for Shavuot , which starts on Saturday night.  I also want to make a non baked cheese cake with biscuits for them.  it is customary to eat dairy products.  I spent a true fortune on dairy and fruits.  I am planning on making a cheesecake and a lasagna.  I also want to make a spinach quiche.  I bought two kinds of prepared ravioli.  I bought tons of fancy yogurts and puddings.  I think I over did it.  I do not have a crowd coming.  it will be just my son and his wife, the two grandkids and a friend.  oh well.....

we bought ingredients yesterday for the kids to make their own non bake cheesecake.  we will make it when we come back from their school.  we will leave it in the freezer until Saturday night.  it beats making slime.  the kids probably will want to go to town but I will be to tired and hot.  I took them to a theater production for kids the other day.  it was a small fortune but they won't be around much longer.  the family is moving to Jerusalem.  I enjoyed the show because I got to see professional costumes and set designs.  the kids were bored and tired.  they will at least have the memory of having gone with me.

I seem to be spending money faster than I can earn it.  I don't know how much longer I will be able to work.  between the heat and the recent rain storms I needed to cab it to work.  I have been too tired to take the bus.  my legs ache and I seem to look a lot older these days.  I get treated like an old lady.  it isn't really a bad thing.  taxi drivers help me with my bags and kids give me a seat on the bus.  it is what it is.

we in Israel have been celebrating lately.  we had an historic victory in the Eurovision song contest, an embassy move to Jerusalem and a miraculous defeat of  Iranian forces in Syria.  I cannot predict the immediate future but I am loving the recent success.

Sunday, May 6, 2018

Showtime

it is 9:00 p.m. in the holy city of safed.  I just got back from the dress rehearsal of my friend's show.  I coordinated the costumes and props.   I actually, appliqued pink felt dog paws and poodles onto a trashy looking black dress.  I was going for a modern day take on cruella Deville but couldn't find any Dalmatian material, hence the poodles.  the character wears a Sia like short wig. one side is platinum and the other is black.

I dressed the same actress in a blue and white polka dot two piece outfit circa princess Diana.  she wears a small red satin shoulder bag, red beads and a large red hat with a huge red flower.  we had the skirt, which was a maxi; turned into a mini skirt.  the actress is stunning and very thin with long beautiful legs.

I went to the gallery, where they are performing the play, early this morning with almost all of the costumes and props.  we forgot a suit bag filled with three costumes.  after work I returned with the bag.  I managed to give each actor a small suitcase with his own costumes and props.  I spent the entire rehearsal picking up clothes and props from the floor.  I also helped close buttons and zippers  and even applied face makeup to the actors.  I even ran back to my friend's house to bring three costume wigs.  she assumed that I had packed them up.  I assumed that the actresses had them.

I went to work and only had to cook dinner.  there were about 50 hamburgers left over form Thursday's barbecue.  I had made over 100 patties.  I quickly fried them up and made a pot of rice to go with them.  I baked a couple of eggplants and called it a day.  even though I wasn't required to feed the guys lunch, I left canned tuna, boiled eggs, canned corn, leftover kasha and fresh veggies and tahini.  I  felt sorry for the guys.  they had an out Shabbat but they all seemed to be back at the yeshiva in the morning.

I got home and I was starving.  I finished the rice and green lentils from Shabbat.  I had a little tuna left over, too.  the dog got most of the rice and tuna.  the cast wanted me to take a bow but I don't think costume designers take bows.  I also feel too self conscious about my weight gain.  I wanted to make a 'costumes r us' tee shirt.  turns out that there is already a huge costume store in England with that name.  I decided to change my name to 'costumes 4 us'.  I don't really have any shirts that I can mark up.  oh well....

I have to go to work in the morning and cook 2 meals.  I hope I will have enough time to come home and shower and get dressed up a bit for the show. I have been running around lately taking care of a lot of details.  I did some shortening of pants and taking in a tuck or two on a dress.  I bought headbands just for the large bows and I changed buttons on jackets.

the kids were away for Shabbat.  I felt overwhelmingly alone and depressed.  I ate way too much sugar, too.  they are leaving safed soon and I am feeling really sad.  I got to take the kids to a lag  b' omer rally on Wednesday night.  I bought them presents because they always get sad when they don't win the raffle prizes.  this time they got prizes before we left.  I didn't make it to meron this year.  we had a heat wave and I felt awful.  there were terrible traffic jams until today.  I may go with my friend next week.


Tuesday, April 24, 2018

Ready To Call It A Day

it is 10:00 p.m. in the holy city of safed.   I just finished tulip painting the outlines of the pink poodle appliques on one of the costumes.  I didn't do that great of a job.  I kind of spread the outline paint on the thick side.  I used to be able to do it thin.   I didn't have the patience nor the skill set anymore.  I hope that paint remover also removes tulip acrylic paint.  I kind of smudged the dress in places.

I have been meeting with the actors each morning this week to do fittings and decide on articles of clothing.  I have given them an hour of my time and then I have run or taxied it to work.  I have been cooking for 5-6 hours a day.  the guys haven't been eating much and some of my dishes have been virtually untouched.  I have had to throw out a lot of leftover food that didn't get put away.

today there wasn't a scrap of food left from lunch.  I found a full pot of morracocan chick pea stew in the fridge when I came in this morning.  I actually tasted it.  it was fine.  I did have to chuck out a pot of potatoes that had soured from the night before.  certain spices like turmeric can turn a potato off.  I removed most of the chickpeas from the stew and threw in the remaining rice from the night before.  I had made a mix of white and brown rice.  I reinvented the stew as a tomato soup.

I also made roasted potatoes and roasted cauliflower.  I fried up a bunch of corn fritters from the remaining canned corn and I made a small zucchini kugel.   the guys didn't touch any of the raw veggies at breakfast so I made an Italian dressing and they ate it.  yesterday I made a corn soufflé and a bread pudding from left over challah.  I didn't have any milk so I added some tahini to water. it worked.   the guys seem to like rice.  I found a package of brown rice in the pantry as well as two packs of whole wheat spaghetti.  the guys loved it.  I made turkey meatballs for supper with brown rice, roasted eggplant and a salad of chickpeas and diced tomatoes.  I felt that perhaps, it wasn't enough food; so I opened an industrial sized can of corn.

they are turning off the water tomorrow for about 7 hours.  I kind of panicked and started looking up recipes that didn't require water.  as it turns out, I will be nearly finished by the time they turn off the water.  I was going to schlepp bottles of water to the yeshiva but I won't have to now.  I just need some water for myself to drink and to wash my hands.  I think i'll have enough time to fill up some pots when I get in.  it is always a challenge to come up with meals when I don't have any eggs, or oil or gas or in this case, water.  I do like a good challenge.

the lady cook, who replaced me when I got sick, once came in on a snow storm and wore a miner's cap with a head light and cooked for the guys when there was no electricity.  she did live up the block from the yeshiva, but still, it took a lot of fortitude on her part.  I am not that devoted.  I also live quite a distance away.  it is about an hour walk.  I did a massive clean up in front of the yeshiva's kitchen yesterday.  there were loads of discarded cardboard boxes and a couple of humongous trash bags that were ripped open by the cats.  I somehow managed to fold up all the cartons and place them in another box to be thrown out.  I also put the spilled contents of one of the garbage bags into a fresh bag.

I had to use my hands as I had no scooper or even a broom.  the guys threw everything out after they had their lunch.  they even tidied up the dining room, too.  we made real progress.  I couldn't really fall asleep last night.  I was too tired.  I had too many thoughts spinning around in my head.  hopefully, I will pass out soon.

Friday, April 20, 2018

Ready For Shabbat?

it is 4:30 p.m. in the holy city of safed.  the food is on the electric platter ready to heat up for Shabbat.  the kids are coming to me for the meals.  they were all in Jerusalem for the independence day festivities.  I schlepped to tel aviv on Tuesday.  I got a good report from the oncologist and don't have to see him again until next year.  I think I officially made my 5 years clean.  it took about 5 hours to get home to safed.  I caught a bus to tel aviv in front of the hospital.  it is about a 50 minute ride.  I stopped off at the train station to see schedules.  I was toying with the idea of training it home.  I got confused and panicked and ran across the street to catch a bus.  I waited for about 50 minutes for an express bus.  it usually takes 2 1/4 hours.  it took three hours to get to rosh pina.  I caught a taxi which left me on the main road.

I schlepped up a long hill and stopped off at the supermarket.  I bought popsicles and candy, hot dogs and chicken wings, beer and fizzy drinks, veggies and rolls and chumus and potato chips and marshmallows;  just in case my friends wanted to do a grill for independence day.  I was invited to a friend's house to have pan fried hamburgers.   no one wanted to grill.  I promised to bring over some beers.  I ended up sleeping through most of the day and evening.  it was a bit frightening to be that tired.  I also ended up food binging.  I ate all of the candy and all of the popsicles.  I don't know what happened to me. it was a full fledged binge. it was like an outer body experience.

I went to work at the yeshiva on Wednesday.  it looks like the guys aren't coming for meals.  I have been tossing out tons of food.  it is a bit discouraging.  I know that my food is tasty .  I don't understand the current dynamic.  they used to finish up every crumb.  I took home some cooked spaghetti and kasha.  I made a spinach kugel with the spaghetti for Shabbat.  my daughter-in-law loves kasha.  I will have to chuck out a lot of food on sunday.  I doubt that the guys finished the food.  I didn't want to work on independence day and I wasn't sure if they were having any public transportation.  I made 4 meals on Wednesday.  I caught a taxi home.  I was exhausted.  it was extremely hot and there wasn't any air in the kitchen.  I couldn't find the remote to turn on the air conditioner. 

I felt a bit nauseated by the time I reached home.  I think I was borderline dehydrated.  I ran down to the supermarket this morning to buy more candy, potato chips and popsicles for Shabbat.  I couldn't carry half a watermelon home and I didn't feel like calling a taxi.  I bought a lot of nash for the kids.  I hope I won't indulge again.  I made a simple Shabbat.  I made : mashed potatoes, teriyaki chicken livers, sweet chili chicken wings, fresh corn on the cobb, hamburgers and hot dogs, Moroccan style stewed tilapia fillets with carrots and potatoes, a red cabbage slaw and an Israeli salad.  I bought a small container of chumus.  I wanted to bake a chocolate cake but I didn't have any flour.  I was thinking about using matzah meal.  I think I'm too tired.  I have cookies, blanched almonds, dried apple rings and mini halvahs.  I think no one will miss the cake. and of course we have raspberry sherbet popsicles.

I need to do a quick mopping of the kitchen and dining room floors. I am ready to fall asleep again.  o well....

Monday, April 16, 2018

Tell Me Why I Don't Like Mondays

it is 10:00 a.m. in the holy city of safed.   the grandkids got taken to school at 7:45 a.m.  grandson stayed home at the Sephardi grandma's.  he had a terrific bicycle accident on Shabbat and thankfully, didn't break anything.  his poor face is all scabbed and swollen and he has an egg sized bump under his eye.  my daughter-in-law apparently fainted after the incident.  I was very lucky to have not gone through these things when my son was growing up.

I am not thrilled about going back to work.  yesterday I made turkey meatball cabbage soup, chopped turkey meatloaf and shepherd's pie with chopped turkey.  that is what I have in the freezer to use.  I made a sweet noodle kugel  and one with grated zucchini and onion.  I made it with spaghetti as there isn't any noodles in the pantry.  I tried to make extra dishes because I have an appointment to see the oncologist tomorrow in tel aviv.

I was pressured because I had the grandkids sleeping over.  the Sephardi grandma picked me up at work and drove us all home.  the kids made art projects out of some felt material I had bought to applique a costume.  the grandson made a shirt and pants that actually fit one of his sister's dolls. it was better than what one sees on project runway.  the kid has talent!

I wanted to smear arnica oil over his face to help reduce the swelling but he was having no part of it.  he finally fell asleep at around 11:00 p.m. and I tried to apply the oil but it was hard while he slept.  it was also hard to get the granddaughter up and dressed.  she fell asleep at around 9:00 p.m. but she was really tired.  it is very hard having her mother out of town. I need to travel tomorrow at around 6:00 a.m.  I will order a taxi when I get home from work.  the health insurance pays for a one way taxi to the hospital for cancer patients.

I am hoping to get a good report now that I am almost 5 years clean.  I know that I will hear something about my eight gain.  I tried to put off the appointment but they didn't have another until two months from now.  I didn't want to wait that long.  I did lose a bunch of weight awhile ago but I gained a ton when I broke off relationships with my family.  I look huge.  I think that I might cab it to work.  I'm exhausted.  I want to cook up a bag of chick peas and turn the remainder of the meatball soup into a chick pea stew.  I will serve the remainder of the shepherd's pie for lunch if there is any  left and if, of course, it was put into the fridge.

as usual, there is no one really at the helm of the ship of the yeshiva.  there is a student who runs out to buy items and groceries but he doesn't always get things right.  he got me the large aluminum disposable trays when I actually need the smaller ones.  he also got this really cheap tin foil that rips and doesn't really do the job.  I truly don't feel like working this morning.  I need to make a pot of soup, some cauliflower fritters and some ratatouilles.  I dread leaving the house.

Thursday, April 12, 2018

So Tired

it is 4:00 p.m. in the holy city of safed.   I just got home from working at the yeshiva.  I got a call this morning to ask if I could come back to work for them.   apparently, there are only 10 guys right now.  I said I would give it a try.  I was absolutely knocked out by yesterday's 'fashion' outing with my friend.  I have been supplying her with costumes for her next play.  we had a field day at the open air market downtown.  we bought a whole lot of things to use for the play.  we had another cast member come over to try on her costumes.  that was at 3:00 p.m.  we had set out at 10:00 a.m. to scout out clothes.

I got my friend set up in her costume but we needed to bring the dress to the seamstress to shorten it.  I had found a fake leather jacket in the street and we took that in to have shortened, also.  I had sorted out another male cast member the day before with 3 outfits.  a Gloria Vanderbilt black dress that I had bought in a thrift shop and worn 9 years ago made an incredible priest's gown.

I appliqued paw prints and French poodles made out of pink felt onto a very punkie looking black dress.  I found the dress years ago at a thrift shop or possibly in the garbage bin..  I don't quite remember it right now.  we have been using it for purim and plays for years.   I used to be able to fit into it.  the current actress couldn't get it closed.  we ran back to the seamstress in town to add more material at 5:00 p.m. when she reopened her shop.  we also took a  very long polka dotted skirt to have shortened into a micro mini.

the seamstress is doing okay by us.  and of course, vice averse.  I do not have the patience or the skill set right now to shorten clothing.  we decided that we needed a red paten leather belt for the blouse part of the polka dotted outfit.  at close to 6:00 p.m. we schlepped to every single store in safed looking for a red belt.  we found a seamstress/dressmaker who was ready to make us a red satin sash but it wasn't a proper belt with a buckle.

at nearly 7:00 p.m. we bought a thin stretchy elastic red belt in a dress shop for only 39 shekels.  my friend had nearly succumbed to buying a rather wide genuine leather red belt for 150 shekels.  the shop owner was giving us a discount down from 200.  luckily, I talked her out of it.  she later admitted that the belt was rather uncomfortable.  we said our goodbyes and I got home at 7:30 p.m.  it was already holocaust day.


the regular television broadcasting is cancelled on this day.  they only view movies about the holocaust and documentaries.  interestingly enough, they did broadcast the BBC. I ate something quickly and pretty much passed out on the t.v. couch.  I woke up to a really dreadful film, 'death in love'.  I was too tired to watch it and too tired to turn it off.

I woke up this morning and felt as if a truck had hit me.  I was tired.  then I got the call form the yeshiva.  I managed to get there without taking a taxi.  the place looked clean and it had been painted.  I quickly started cutting up an enormous sweet potato.  I could barely cut through it.  I wanted to make an orange soup.  I had finally succeeded in cutting up the sweet potatoes, onions and carrots and seasoned it.  the manager came to tell me that they weren't planning on feeding the guys today.  I told him that I thought they had about 6 guys here already.  I got the green light from the head rabbi to proceed and make supper for them.

I quickly realized that they were out of gas.  I went into plan b and c.  I baked a bunch of white potatoes in the oven.  I then took the veggies from the soup and added pieces of cauliflower and zucchini and decided to bake them also.   there were no aluminum tin trays.  I placed the potatoes on the wire rack.  I removed some tin foil off of the electric platter and put it on a baking rack to accommodate the veggies.  I added some oil and broth from the soup to the veggies.   the electric kettle was missing so I didn't know how I could prepare some bulgur.   I took most of the remaining liquid  from the baked steamed veggies and poured it over a pot of bulgur and placed it on an oven rack.  finally, the gas balloon was delivered and I finished cooking the bulgur on the stove.

I made an israeli salad with tomatoes and cucumbers and a bit of tahini sauce.  I didn't mince it really tiny.  I took the electric platter into the dining room to set it up.  it was only 3:00 p.m. and dinner isn't until 7:00 p.m.  the few guys saw the food and I had to tell them that I only made one meal for them.  they didn't care.  they were happy.  it was the first hot food they had eaten in a while.  oh well.......

7:00 p.m.  I went to watch my cooking contest and realized that it is still holocaust day .  that is, for  at least another hour.  I ran outside to hang an Israeli flag.  independence day is next week.  I didn't remember but I actually found a huge flag outside the supermarket last year.  I am early.  there is only one other flag hanging on my block so far.

Monday, April 9, 2018

Getting It Back

it is10:00 a.m. in the holy city of safed.  the holiday of pesach ended on Friday night.  I still have not put all of my pesach pots and pans away.  I am in the process of  washing various pieces of cutlery, plates, sink inserts and dish racks.  I am cleaning the electric hotplate and still need to do the stove top.  on Shabbat I took out my grandma's blue glass soup bowls.  I only have 4 remnants of her set that represents a time gone by.  a time before disposable dishes and table cloths and cutlery.  a time of sets of china and linen tale cloths and napkins.  a time when everything was served on heavy china platters.

I serious wonder if I will be able bodied next year to pull out the pesach things once again.  who knows?  my brain MRI was cancelled for this week.  .it was pushed off until the end of may.  I see my oncologist next week.  I think it will be 5 years cancer free in October.  I need to wash the kitchen floor.  I also must tackle the upstairs for a potential rental.  I am also involved in getting costumes ready for a play at the beginning of may.  the kids went back to school yesterday.  the daughter-in-law's place of work closed so I am off the hook right now for babysitting.

my girlfriends and I played monopoly on Shabbat afternoon.  I slaughtered them.  I had a slow start but finished magnificently.  the key to success is to buy houses right away.  I didn't build up a lot of monopolies but I built on all the properties that I had.  one friend was not amused.  she is a bit of a sore loser.  my other friend and I were laughing and singing old movie tunes.  it passed the afternoon at any rate.  Shabbat is very long these days.

I did a bit of binge eating yesterday. I was pretty good during pesach but I did eat too much.  yesterday I polished off the potato chips and dairy chocolate.  I also had these horrible coconut cookies.  I need to get myself together for my oncologist appointment next week.  I am bored I guess

2:00 p.m.    got all pesach things put away.  I managed to rearrange the closets and put the pesach stove top on a bottom shelf.  too bad I couldn't fit the electric platter there, too.  I washed the kitchen floor and everything looks back to normal.  I actually prefer the way it looks on pesach.  oh well.....