A New Week

it is 9:00 p.m. in the holy city of safed.  just got back from my daily/ nightly walk.  it was way too hot to walk during the day. i made it to synagogue to hear the weekly torah portion.  there was no airconditioner or fans running.  i tried to breathe and not panic.  i thought about going home but i was tired.  as it was, i left before the service ended.  as soon as i left the synagogue, huge rain drops descended.  it was like hailing by the time i got home. i live about five minutes from the synagogue.  i was definately wet, but not soaked.  it was strange.  the rain was actually cold.  i expected warm rain on such a hot day.  it was around 90 degrees out and the size of the drops falling were llike hail balls.  i didn't run.  i looked around.  it was like summer and winter all rolled into one.

i quickly changed into dry clothes and made kuddush.  i drank some wine.  i had a lovely salad waiting for me and i added bits of cooked salmon and a hard cooked egg.  i didn't leave the electric hot plate on.  i had luke warm chai tea with almond milk.  i had a baked sweet potato for dessert. it was sweeter than any pastry i could have wanted.  i bentched and went to lie down.  i was very tired.  i guess the heat knocked me out.  i slept for a few moments and got up.  i spent the day reading a dick francis murder mystery.

at 4:00 p.m. i took the dogs out.  it was a bit windy but definately, still hot.  i decided to wait until the sun went down to go out again. i went back in and had another salad.  i am trying to shed a few unwanted pounds.  i hadn't gained weight in a while.  i recently started binge eating again.  it is now considered an eating disorder like bulemia or anorexia.  i had not indulged in quite a while. i try not weighing myself and usually can tell by how my clothes fit if there is a change.  i guess i goofed.

i need to be out of the house for a few hours so that i don't just eat out of boredom.  although, i eat mostly healthy and unprocessed foods and avoid sugar, you can gain weight by just eating too much.  today i made sure to eat alot of green salad with a bit of protein.  i used to eat salad three times a day.  i don't remember when i stopped.  i am back to working 45 minutes a day.  i used to walk much more than that.  most of my friends do not walk much for various reasons.  hopefully, i will get myself back on track soon. i find it hard to do my walk and also do the pool.  i will cut down on the amount i eat and try to be conscious of when i eat and why.