it is 7:30 a.m. and I'm getting ready to start my day. I feel a bit rested today. I was really out of it yesterday. I had a bad dizzy attack in the afternoon. I've been drinking a lot of lemon water lately and I thought I was keeping myself well hydrated. I don't know what happened but I'm feeling stronger today.
I was able to get a doctor's appointment for 9:00 a.m. so I will try to walk over to the office. I need the exercise. I watched the kids yesterday and put them to sleep while the older kids went to a shoe sale. the three year old pulled off my head covering and I was totally humiliated. my hair is always covered and no one has seen my head in 30 years. I keep my hair cropped very short and no longer dye it. I don't wear my wig much, either.
the kids laughed at their accomplishment. I was fit to be tied. I gave the granddaughter a potch on her hand. I really wanted to beat her. I felt so violated by them. the big kids got back at 8:30 p.m. and I retreated upstairs to my t.v. corner. I am addicted to reality t.v. I have 'lifetime' and i'll watch anything from girl midgets to serial killers. I truly love 'dance moms' and 'storage wars'. I have watched a couple of drug and alcohol interventions and a few episodes of 'hoarders' but they were too hard to take.
I really don't do much lately. I finally tracked down the number for a washing machine repair service. it was a long hard trail, too. hopefully, i'll get a 'whirlpool' technician to come to the house. I've used the local yokels but they can't really fix the problem. I'm learning to use only professionals. I have a huge load of towels waiting to be laundered. I'm so much calmer today. I feel like I've been sedated. I'm thinking about keeping the doctor's appointment next week. I might try to reach the secretary later and see if I can reschedule if I have the resolve. something tells me to just forget about it, though.
I still feel a bit pressured to buy some produce for Shabbat but maybe i'll get lucky and the kids will go out this week. one can only hope. I got a letter from the vet to bring in the puppy for his second rounds of shots. I need to buy him a collar first. he is a lot to handle now. I really am thinking about leaving him at the outdoor animal shelter. he is used to sleeping with me in a bed but he is still a young thing and I can't keep up with him. I saved his life. that should matter for something, right?
I am still stressing over the arrival of the friend's dog. I am dreading it, actually. she took care of my dogs when I went off to radiation for 2 months. I do wish that she found someone else to care for this pet. and I wish I was getting paid for the gig. I certainly could use the money. anyway, it's a new day and I'm already feeling a bit tired. perhaps it's time to see the homeopath again.