it's 9:00 p.m. in the holy city of zefat. my grandson and son just left. they came to visit for a short amount of time. i was in no condition to babysit. i went to work at 7:00 a.m. this morning. i didn't finish until 2:00 p.m. i can't seem to get everything done in less than 7 hours. i am only getting paid for part time work. i am working full time.
it is pretty hot. cooking and baking all day is hard. i am on my feet all day long. i never sit or take a break. i drink my coffee standing up. i eat my food standing up. i am getting pretty fed up. i don't think i can do this much longer.
i got in this morning to: no electricity/no vegetables or produce/and no bread. i have been demanding bread for 2 weeks. the guys need bread. i can't keep on making cakes and kugels to stuff them up. we need bread! i was planning on making a couscous cake and a potato kugel. i wanted to leave early. i was planning on taking my tenant to the winery for lunch. there were no potatoes to use. there was only a bit of flour left. the oven was out of order.
i quickly, started to make corn latkes. i only have a small fry pan so i could only do about 4 at a time. it took close to an hour to get them all done. i wanted to use the left over spaghetti to make a kugel. i tried making a pan kugel but it didn't work. i served scrambled eggs and noodles. i took yesterday's quinoa and added a good amount of couscous to fill up the pot. i added more spices and a few cranberries. they raved about it.
the new kids are quite easy. they're not serious health food fanatics. they love can corn, and tuna and macaroni salad. they like the mayo, too. i make egg salad every day. they especially, love my spaghetti. most of the health food freaks are gone. the eggless vegan guy loves everything. he'll eat potatoes and corn and pasta as long as i don't add eggs.
i try to make eggless cakes for him. the other guys love the sweets. i made a pumpkin, banana and peanut butter loaf on sunday. it was a bit raw but the guys wolfed it down, anyway. today i made a vat of red lentils and bulgar for lunch. i made a salad with the few veggies i had brought in on sunday. i took the rest of the lentil soup from last night and used it for a base to make veggie chili. i added a lot of kidney beans and chick peas. it took forever to cook up.
i am spent. i am truly tired. i don't know how much longer i can keep this job up. it is a lot of work. the boys are wonderful. they really love my food. they are so thankful. that keeps me going. i need more money. they are going to have to come up with a better plan. or perhaps, they will go back to catering greasy food. i need help. it is really hot in the house. i had the fan on before, but i started having the chills.
i went off my diet and have been binging since shavuot. i can't look at food. all i want to eat is icecream and cookies. what a shame. i've put on quite a bit of weight. i was finally getting down to my ideal dress size. i don't know how to turn it around. i am not a happy camper.