It' All A Bit Confusing

It is 9:00 a.m in the holy city of safed.  I got a late start this morning.  the dogs also 'slepped in'.  i finally took them out at 7:00 a.m.   we are all camped out in the television cove.  my friend opened up the little couch and we are pretty much comfortable in that space.  it's a tad short for sleeping but i manage.  it is double the width now.  i no longer have to roll myself into the fetal position on one side, anymore.  there is an electric heater on the wall, above the television; which makes the area warm and cozy, most of the time.  when you have such a large home, it is practically, financially impossible, to centrally heat here.  most of the neighbors use wood burning stoves.  i have managed well this winter.  let's see what the damage is when i get the new bill.

i got to work yesterday before 5:00 p.m.  i only had to prepare supper for the guys.  it had been an out Shabbat.  i had wanted to go back to Jerusalem for Shabbat but i was too tired.  i was a bit confused earlier on and thought that i had to get to work at noon.  i stopped off at a clothing store and tried on a sweater dress.  it was a bit too tight.  i might just go back and buy it anyway.  it would be great to wear under other clothes on those freezing days and nights. it was only about $12.  just when i start feeling thinnish, i get a reality check.  Israeli clothes are another animal.  they are made tiny.  i'm fine in my old size 12 clothes.  they are a bit loose. trying to buy clothes here is hard.  i usually buy second hand American clothes.  the quality is better and the sizes are fuller.

i got to work and the kitchen was on the dark side.  the ceiling florescent lights were waning.  it was very hard to work. i quickly peeled a bunch of carrots and sweet potatoes to make an orange soup.  i only had two burners working, too.  i quickly put up a bag of bulgur.  i had to wait until the soup was done to make the hamburger patties.  i opened up an industrial size can of corn and made a salad with pickles, onions and red peppers.  i also made a salad with tomatoes and sliced onions.  i realized when i left, that i had probably made too much food.  i was confused and in my mind; i thought that they had fasted all day and needed two meals.  i only hope that they put away the leftovers because i will be coming in late today.

i need to get the paperwork for my upcoming visit to the surgeon on Thursday.  i am going back to the tel aviv area, yet, once again.  they found a 'spot' on my left lung when i did a routine pet scan a few months ago.  i had to go to the hospital to do a CT and then i had to go back to see the lung doctor.  he felt that the growth was insignificant but in the end, he made another appointment to see a surgeon.  i hope that the surgeon doesn't want to do a biopsy.  i read that they can puncture your lung during the process.  i expressed my concern with the doctor but he said that the chance of that happening was rare.

i am truly tired and i am very tempted to just blow off the visit.  i am hoping that they will just want me to do another CT in another couple of months.  we are getting closer to pesach and i do not cherish more travelling.  i read that sometimes they use a camera down the throat instead of using the needle to do the biopsy.  i do not wish to find out.  my friend had it done and said she was hoarse for a few days afterwards.  once you are in the medical system; you are trapped.  every minor growth is a big megilah. 

i had made plans to go back to town to check out more clothes, when i remembered my doctor's appointment at noon.  i have to stick around in my area until the appointment.  i will probably catch a taxi to work.  yesterday, i didn't get home until 8:15 p.m.  i waited nearly a half an hour for the bus.  i was really tired and wet so when i saw a taxi; i took it. i  think i made a whole 65 shekels yesterday.  i do not want to bother coming in anymore if it is just for one meal.  i have to make 4 meals on Wednesday so i can leave 2 for Thursday.  that's 12 different dishes.  i think they will have rice and chopped meat casserole, spaghetti with meat sauce, hot dogs and anything else, that's easy to prepare.