it is 11:00 a.m. in the holy city of safed. it is another hot day but there is a bit of a breeze. I just had my breakfast. I finally got to taste my silver dollar cottage cheese banana pancakes. I found a recipe which uses only 5 tablespoons of flour. I don't have a gluten problem so, for now, I will use regular flour. I do want to explore almond and coconut flour in the near future. my sister is diabetic and I'm trying to get some recipes in order for when she visits.
I like these pancakes for Saturday norming before I go to services. it's a nice change from muffins. the dogs love them. I was able to get about 28-29 pancakes. after five, I'm satisfied. I do like a bit of summer fruit with them. today I had mangoes. the fruit tends to ripen pretty fast in the heat. my gardener said this morning that I looked younger. I guess being hydrated agrees with me. and of course, my eating lots of fruit and not eating after 8:00 p.m. doesn't hurt.
I woke up with a terrible earache. I babysat last night for the kids and I didn't know how to turn off the air conditioner. I couldn't find a cover, either. I made myself a hot cup of tea to warm up. unfortunately, the caffeine kept me up all night. I finally turned the television off around 4:00 a.m. and fell asleep. I woke up with an excruciating earache. I didn't have any peroxide so I put a bit of arnica oil inside. it took the edge off but I'm still in pain. the grandkids are coming over and I'm not fit for human consumption.
I don't think I should go into the pool today. it is really hot outside and I can't see sitting outside in the hot sun while the kids play around in the pool. I am not a happy camper right now. I have been experiencing a certain well being of late. it has been a long time coming. I am trying so hard to shed all of this extra weight. it just isn't budging. I am not really active so I see that diet alone cannot do much. it's really too hot to take long walks.
I'm off, once again, to the hospital in tel aviv tomorrow. I will take a taxi and return by bus. that's 3 busses, actually. I have a 50 minute bus ride from the hospital back to tel Aviv, proper and usually about that amount of time waiting for one. I then have another long wait for a bus back to tel aviv. I try to take an express bus which arrives in Rosh Pina in about 2 and a quarter hours. I then take a local bus back to safed and I have about a 10 minute walk home.
tomorrow is my gyn oncologist visit. I care about this extra weight. I postponed it for about a month but I wasn't successful in shedding any weight. oh well. at least I look well, according to the gardener. I have had an emotional time. I had a falling out with my sister and missed the family wedding. I am an emotional eater. too bad, I didn't stop eating. I'd be thin by now. I am beginning to feel whole. I still think about what was said all the time but I don't have the emotional baggage. I can actually experience joy. I don't feel like a marked woman, anymore.