it is 4:00 p.m. in the holy city of safed. I'm going to the Sephardi in-laws for Shabbat dinner. the kid's grandfather, who is ten years younger than me, is having a birthday. I didn't make it to the Sephardi grandma's birthday party but I feel more obligated to join them tonight. it is still very hot in safed. we do get some relief at night. the house is very hot. I have 3 fans going and it is bearable.
I made some 'skinny' banana cottage cheese pancakes for breakfast. they only have 4 tablespoons of flour and two tablespoons of olive oil. I added a lot of cinnamon. no sugar was added. last week I ate them with a nectarine sauce. I threw out the sauce today without tasting it. I was not in the mood for 'geriatric' food.
I went back to the open air market on Wednesday and bought more fruit. last week I discovered someone selling the most delicious fruits at really low prices. I bought 6 pounds of nectarines for $2.50. they were luscious and sweet and juicy and not at all like what you get in the supermarket. I couldn't possibly eat all of them so I gave half to my daughter-in-law. in this heat fruit ripens instantly.
I finally went to the large supermarket in Canaan. I have been avoiding it for months. I didn't want to run into my sister or niece. I said a silent prayer that I should not see anyone who can harm me before I entered the store. I made a playdate with a friend and the little boy she cares for with my grandkids. we decided to make a barbecue. I bought franks and chicken wings and hamburgers for really little money. and of course, I bought a large bag of marshmallows. I also stocked up my freezer for the holidays. I even bought frozen kreplach for Yom Kippur. the holidays do come early this year.
I went to the brain surgeon on Tuesday. it was a fast day. I have not been eating after 8:00 p.m. lately. I got to the hospital in two hours by taxi. the hospital was freezing. I didn't feel hungry or thirsty. getting home was a bit trickier. it took about 5 hours to return. I ended up taking a taxi from Rosh Pina. I was spent. I got back at 7:00 p.m. and the fast ended at 8:15 p.m. for me it was a 24 our fast and I felt fine. I think my body needed a strong fast.
I haven't weighed myself. I think I may have lost an inch or two but my stomach is still very poufy. I have to say that drinking more liquids and eating fruits has helped me. I feel much better and more energetic. I am contemplating undergoing the brain surgery after the holidays. we shall see what happens. next week I go, once again, to tel aviv to see my gyn oncologist. I might do a fruit fast on Sunday and Monday. I am desperate to drop a bit of weight before I see the doctor.
I have had the grandkids with me all week. we have spent a good deal of the time in the pool downstairs. both kids swim like fish now. of course, I can't get a moment to relax. they need my constant attention and focus. at least I feel needed. as my taxi pulled out of the supermarket parking lot yesterday, I spotted my sister entering the supermarket. it was the first time that I saw her since our falling out. I was so relieved to have missed her inside. prayers do get answered.
I woke up at 8:00 a.m. feeling pretty groggy and tired. I had the kids with me until 10:00 p.m. last night. I quickly washed all the floors because they were trashed. I scurried around straightening up and I did the leftover dishes from the barbecue. the kids got here around 10:00 a.m. there was no day camp this morning. both of them had meltdowns right away but at separate moments. I worried about the neighbors being inconvenienced. I guess that's by codependence acting up. they both recovered from their fits and we had a nice time in the pool.
I bought the kids new skate shaped scooters. they had a bit of a tumble going down a hill together. they both got pretty scraped up. luckily, no damage to their faces. elbows and knees were mostly damaged. I guess their removing their shoes was not a good idea. it left them without a brake. oh well....
the kids made birthday cards for their Sephardi grandpa today and I gave then a barbecue set to give him for a present. I was willing to schlepp downstairs to the supermarket to buy him something but I remembered that I had bought a new set of utensils for pesach. I must fly now and take my shower. the Sephardi grandpa brings in Shabbat early.