it is 8:30 a.m. in the holy city of safed. yes, folks; we are once again in lockdown. we just got off a rather, bogus, two week lockdown; where nearly everything was open and now we are in a serious lockdown. it is against the law to be in someone else's house and yet we are allowed to gather indoors in groups of 5 or outdoors in groups of 10. we are allowed to go to demonstrations as long they are in within a kilometer from our homes. i just cannot take this seriously.
i have stopped thinking about covid. i am focusing upon the possibility that my lung tumor might be cancer. these stupid, ineffective lockdowns do not change my lifestyle one iota. i still walk the dogs and walk to the supermarket and pharmacy whenever i have the notion and the energy and of course; the money. we are having a warm spell and it is absolutely glorious to be outside in the warmth and sun. who needs a bottle of vitamin D. i have opened up all of the windows to air out the house a bit.
we have been in the midst of an overly zealous drive to inoculate the town for covid. they have held huge rallies in a hall downtown to get the maximum of the elderly their covid shots. my friends ran to get their shots. many elders want to travel to see their grandkids abroad. one friend wants to get back to vegas after pesach. i for one, do not believe in shots. i never get a flu shot and i refuse to have a pneumonia shot. i am not rushing anywhere to get a covid shot, either. there is a covid shot frenzy in israel. we have to be the first country on the planet to be covid free. and yet, we have a reported 8000 cases a day here. and now the threat of a worse strain of the dreaded covid from england is upon us.
the stress and the confusion is maddening and depressing. i am trying very hard to keep my equilibrium. i have stopped speaking out against the covid shots. i have also stopped speaking out against the biden presidency. i refrain from watching or listening to the news. i live in my little bubble. i have recently accessed free netflix ad i am binge watching series all day and night long. i am still pretty much sugar free but i recently mistakenly; bought sweetened almond milk. i have been grossly overeating lately. i seem to not be able to get enough of my carbs. it could be a lot worse. except for the two slices of pizza that i wolfed down at the birthday party a few weeks ago; i have managed to make and eat my own food. no take out food for me.
i will join the sephardi family downstairs for shabbat meals. the government is coming off very hard and threatening to crack down on everyone during this new lockdown. i caught a glimpse of the israeli news at a friends' house last night. they showed continuous footage of citizens getting covid shots and actually had a countdown to the lockdown like the new year's eve ball dropping. i am absolutely uninterested. i have two hospital appointments in february and march which will require extensive travelling on public busses. whatever......
i am desperately short of funds at the moment. i went to the local supermarket to look for discounted chicken wings and other goodies. i came home with canned organic tomatoes, spicy chili beans, and sardines with peri peri. they were all out of wings. i bought a lettuce and a read cabbage to make a salad for shabbat lunch. i spent about $12. i made a salad with the sardines and ended up with the worst heartburn. they were incredibly hot. my chest throbbed for hours. the Sephardi mom did my laundry this week. my machine was uninstalled to allow for her machine and dryer. i have been doing hand wash since april. she washed all of my towels and a few sheets so i am set for the next visit from the kids.
life is swell. life is good. life is full of warm bowls of oatmeal and bananas and apples and dates and neflix shows and endless hours of the food network and walks with the dogs and countless hours on Facebook and what's app with friends. the yeshiva that i worked for is looking for a cook. i am so wanting to go back to work but i can't. i absolutely cannot be in that environment during covid and in all honesty, i no longer have the strength. i cook the bare essentials for myself. wishing you all a good shabbat! and a happy weekend.
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