it is 7:30 p.m. in the holy city of zefat. the big kids finally returned home from their vacation on Saturday night at 1:00 a.m. I had their little kids with me the entire week. they were supposed to come back on Thursday night but they decided to break up their long ride back from Eilat . they spent Shabbat in the old city of Jerusalem. the little kids stayed with me for Shabbat. I just served my son and grandkids organic premade gnocchi with tomato sauce. they were on sale at the supermarket.
I spent a few hours on Friday doing the small kids' laundry. I made minimum food for Shabbat. I cooked up a few chicken legs with potatoes. I made a bit of instant couscous and a small salad. I bought mini challah rolls and pastries. that was it. the kids had lots of junk before Shabbat. I bought several cartons of chocolate milk. I didn't even feel like mixing up chocolate milk for them. I actually enjoyed the store bought chocolate milk.
I took both kids to synagogue with me on Friday night but I was very nervous. I gave my grandson a slap. that wasn't exactly conducive to want to be in shul. I was way too tired to be with the kids by myself. I finished my stint as a cook in the yeshiva on Thursday. I returned home from work and had about an hour to get ready for a wedding. I returned home from said wedding at 2:00 a.m. I did get up and dance a bit to the very loud Israeli trance music. I wore my wig and it was winging wet. it was fun to be with all the neighbors again. it's been a few years since I could manage to go to a simcha.
I decided to take the kids back to shul on Saturday morning. I managed to pray inside while they ran around outside. a family who lost their soldier son last year donated a new sefer torah to the shul. they made a simple Kiddush after services. the kids were happy to sit and eat. they had brown hard cooked eggs and lots of soda. I never buy soda. I let them have as much as they wanted. I munched on nuts and raisins and eggs, too. when we got home I let them go in the wading pool. when they came upstairs they ate some cold cuts.
we all settled down in a bed together and I fell asleep. I was rudely awakened by my granddaughter bopping me on the head. my friend came to visit and we had a couple of vodka breezes. the kids were making as much noise as they could. my grandson had a birthday while his parents were out of town. I didn't get a chance to buy him a gift or make him a cake on Friday. I didn't realize that it was his birthday until Saturday morning. my granddaughter and I sang 'happy birthday' and made a big fuss over him. I tried lifting him 6 times in a chair. I hurt my back. the kid weighs a ton. he will have his official party on Tuesday. i'll make the usual cheesecake.
my daughter-in-law's sister took care of the kids all week long. she got here every morning around 9:30 a.m. and was here when I returned from work at around 4:30 p.m. one day I went to pick them up at the Sephardi grandma's house and we returned home on the bus. almost every day, I took them locally to have a frozen coffee drink. I needed one every day to keep me going. I bought barekas, potato puff pastries with potato filling, every day too. it was our staple food. I had cheerios and cornflakes on hand and lots of milk. I managed to make an omelet or two. and I opened plenty of cans of tuna last week.
I wasn't much for cooking after working all day long in the yeshiva's kitchen. it was good for me to work this summer. I haven't felt so much like my old self in years. I am a fatter version of the old zelda but I can still bust a few moves o the dance floor. I lost a few pounds but can't seem to get the bulk off. I haven't been exactly eating well lately. I haven't binged in a couple of months. I did eat a bag of Doritos this afternoon. and I had my fair share of the gnocchi at dinner time. I didn't have any ice cream this summer or any candy. I did have an occasional cookie or piece of cake. it was really too hot to eat much this summer. I tasted some milk chocolate yesterday but it tasted nasty.
I managed to buy a few tops and skirts this summer. I definitely, haven't been running around in the old rags lately. I need to shed about 18 pounds to look like my old self. it's funny but when I got thin after the chemo, I felt emaciated and couldn't wait to put on some weight. I then, unfortunately, spiraled out of control to my present day state of being grossly overweight. even the gyn oncologist said that I should start losing some weight. I see him again in December. if only I can be slender again....