it is 10:00 a.m. in the holy city of safed. i just finished my third bowl of oatmeal. i added an apple, a banana, a hand full of walnuts and three chopped dates. you would think that this should last me all day but it doesn't. i eat this every morning. today i actually, drank two glasses of water first. i feel a bit dizzy. the weather has been unseasonably warm. i stayed in all week and only went out to walk the dogs. the weather doesn't agree with me. i felt congested and headachy all week long. i also overate every day. i am still doing my intermittent fasting but i have slowed down. i am already thinking about having some rice cakes with peanut butter and citron jelly.
perhaps; it is physical or perhaps it is a sign of resignation. i haven't had a covid shot yet. i am still holding out. my friend says that i am a gambler. she took me to the pharmacy yesterday and bought me an oil of olay face cream. it is quite expensive in israel. she always brings me one when she comes back from her trip to vegas. i must look really dreadful if she bought me the cream. another friend suggested that i wear lipstick. she said that my lips were pasty white. i guess i am not aging so gracefully; afterall.
i just do not see the purpose of wearing makeup or dying my hair; anymore. i no longer go out to restaurants or go to public gatherings. i wear a mask every time i venture out. i am naturally, aging. i just do not care. i shower every day and brush my teeth. i even use a bit of fragrance. i eat well and have given up sugar and junky food. i haven't been walking lately. i am always tired. i think its the result of binge watching on netflix. i seem to be in bed all day watching series that i never got to see.
my kids came in last week for shabbat . they came to see the new baby who is currently staying here with her parents and three year old sister; downstairs. i had to travel to the tel aviv area on thursday to do a CT. it took me four hours and two busses to get to the hospital. it was my first time in a year travelling log distance on a public bus. it was not easy wearing my mask for nearly 9 hours. i left at noon and was back in my house at 9:30 p.m. i returned home and went downstairs to see the grandkids. i walked right into the entire sephardi clan; having a birthday party. i was starving; having not eaten all day. they only had cake and junk to eat. i ended up having two slices of pizza very late that night.
i didn't have tons of gifts for the grandkids this time. i am broke. i got them each a couple of things and gave then some money. they were pleased. my granddaughter wanted to return the money. i guess i shouldn't have explained that i was not rolling in the dough. my grandson; who is about fourteen months; was very standoffish. he doesn't really know me. he does love to come upstairs and see my dogs. he doesn't actually talk yet and doesn't really understand english. it is frustrating to say the least.
i slept with the two older grandchildren on mattresses on the floor. we didn't crash until about 4:00 a.m. i was virtually, non functional the next day. i had done a thorough house cleaning on wednesday and prepared the master bedroom. my place was truly trashed. i cleaned for about six hours. i didn't need to cook a thing. as soon as everyone woke up; they went downstairs. i did make some oatmeal for the toddler. i joined the sephardi family for all the shabbat meals. i had some real quality time with my granddaughter, who is now into charms. we slept together on friday night. the grandson hung with his male cousins.
there were relatively few meltdowns. everyone seemed to get along. we sat outside in the glorious sun for a few hours. the kids dragged out all the different types of lego. it was peaceful. i tried to read psalms. i kept on nodding off. it took me two hours to finish my portion. the kids left early on saturday night and i retreated to my bed and netflix. i wasn't feeling well. of course, i thought i had covid. i had some rather bad dizziness and headaches. i stayed in bed for days. i am pretty sure it was the weird weather because i felt better when it turned a bit colder.
i have to return to the hospital in a couple of weeks to meet with the lung surgeon. i will ask him if he thinks i should have a covid shot. i don't look forward to travelling again. i have a good chance of getting back before nightfall this time. i think they are already predicting bad weather. what can i do? they are talking about no real purim this year. some cities are planning on opening up the mauls. i couldn't care less. i do not have a vaccine passport and don't care to hang out in crowded mauls ever again. i don't eat takeout and do not miss going to restaurants. perhaps, i do miss it a bit. my life is ridiculous.
it is another friday morning and shabbat tonight. the week truly flew by. i will make my own food. i may go to friends who live nearby; for lunch. i found kale yesterday at the local supermarket and had a blast. i defrosted some chicken and i will stew it in a while. i have been feasting on couscous and bulgur lately. i have been hitting the carbs pretty hard. i may have put on a bit of weight. i am pretty inactive. i never feel satiated. thank goodness for my nightly fasting. i have become a shut-in. i did get out yesterday for a bit with a friend. i plan to eat dinner and call it an early night later. i have no desire to talk with anyone tonight. i don't really have any interesting reading for later.
this little mountain town is full of covid. very few are wearing masks anymore.. once the shots began, people got more careless. i am maybe; leaning towards getting vaccinated. i have never had a flu shot. i will see what the lung surgeon has to say to me. i don't really feel like cooking today. i feel heady and congested. it is supposed to get a bit colder. i haven't used the heaters all week long. i am in a real funk.
